Thursday, July 05, 2007
The whole NUS medicine saga has finally got its conclusion, i am out and beaten. Well, i guess i fought and gave my best right from the start, except the interview, which proved to be the finishing blow. I am sorry for bugging all the people around me, and making people who are dear to me worry about me. I really want to become a doctor, haven't thought of anything else. Too addicted to Biomed, too inspired by Dr Koo, too encouraged by friends, too blinded by the want to make my mum proud of me. I know she is already, but i want her to know that she left a good, capable and independent son if she leaves me one dae.
Kai Shyang said something to me in camp yesterdae, that i am a noob, cannot become medical officer, living in self denial that i can become a doctor. I was quite furious and i made it a point for him to know how inferior he is to me. I am hurt by those words, but it has also strengthened my determination. Ziwei told me something else, he asked if i was sad that i cannot get deferment when a lot fo other people have already been defered from the army due to their selection into Yong Loo Lin. Once again, it hurt me. Then i was doing some thinking about this whole issue, whether i will live in this shadow that i feared in the past. During biomed, i remembered that i told myself that i would work hard, and not be a NUS medicine reject. So what if i get my MBBS in Monash, in singapore, many would still see me as a NUS medicine reject. I guess i would not care about these, i am going to become a doctor, and i will make NUS regret. Believe me when i say this, those who know me knows what kind of determination i can have.
Want to really thank a lot of people, my dad, for agreeing to support me in my overseas education, my mum, who reluctantly gave me her blessings. Gloree for all the numerous letters and personal statements she helped to perfect and not to forget all her advice about everything. Chuanyuan and Zeying for always being there for me when i needed to whine. Dr Koo also, for helping me write that letter (my best birthdae present for the year) and for his words that will always stay with me. Weixiang and co for helping me and giving all the necessary advice and avenues to get help and for making me love medicine. Everyone else, daniel, alfred, cihan, kim, and many more who have just said or messaged or do something to let me feel a bit better throughout this pursuit.
The pursuit has not ended, i will return one day, and not disappoint all of you who had faith and high hopes in me, i will prove those who doubt me wrong. I will not budge, i will not give in, i will...
stalin rules
10:35 AM
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