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Saturday, May 26, 2007
sigh, been feeling like shit for the past week. it really sucks. couldn't get into medicine, they rejected me and gave me science. i guess i am just too stubborn, wanting to do medicine and only medicine and i did not prepare a backup plan. i felt lost for once, not knowing what lies ahead for me. i have already done my best under the circumstances i was in, i mugged for it. but i guess i just have a bad record at applying stuff. i have been thinking and thinking, what are my other options, to go overseas to study?it costs almost half a million. NUS-Duke? cannot really practise like a doctor. do science like i was offered and deemed capable only enough to do it? i dunnoe what kind of jobs i can do in the future. i realised i wasn't sad because i got rejected or what, but because i could not be a doctor and i could not do something to make my parents proud of me. i asked my mum, if she was disappointed with me. she saed no, and she saed her son is very capable and smart, will definitely succeed in the future. but i guess she must have saed that to console me. who would not be disappointed. i let her down again. my heart aches...
stalin rules 12:02 AM
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