Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Sigh, today is such a screwed up day. Personal worst day in school ever. First and foremost, i must PUBLICLY APOLOGISE to tingfu, really sorry about the morning thing. Guess was too stressed up by a very challenging physics paper. Really shouldn't have raised my voice at you, but oh well, people always regret after they done something they think they shouldn't have. I am really sorry, really hope we can put this behind. Hope our alliance still stands.
Feel like taking a knife and stabbing into my heart a few times through. Physics totally made me super disgusted. Wonder if i can get an A. Maybe i should learn to accept four Bs and go into some bioengineering course and stop dreaming the great dream. Maybe casino dealing also can, people tip you afterall.
Perhaps i would also like to take this chance to clarify some stuff about the class. Throughout this year, i tried my best in perking up our class spirit and stuff, i know there is a problem, but i guess i never really got to the root of the problem. I think its just all te mugging that's preventing us to forge friendships, thus causing some of us to feel left out. I really have tried, but sometimes when things don't go the way i want them to, i really have no idea how to carry on. times when me and chieh tried to organise a class outing but end up being cancelled cause low attendance. I think i reconciled to the fact, perhaps we shouldn't force everyone to do things they wouldn't like to do. Just invite and welcome those who goes and have fun. Really hope all of you will go for the class chalet, sincerely hope you all will make yourself present. That's purely because i love the class, i love being in 78 and hope all of you will be there. That's as simple as it is.
Well, i guess within the class, there are strong friendships that have been forged. Friendships don't come to you like effortlessly. You really got to reach out and make the first move even sometimes. Its like activation energy, once you make the effort to know somebody, it will all be easy. Friends don't have to have the same hobbies, ideals, principles or goals, they just need to be there for you. Sometimes, only friends give you the ugliest comments you have ever received, and they do so because they are concerned for you.
Well, people will start saying that my blog is too wordy again if i don;t stop, but yeah, its a sad day today. I am really sorry tingfu, please accept my sincerest apologies.
Sadded =(
stalin rules
2:32 PM
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