Saturday, March 11, 2006
what a day, biomed quiz was crazy, don't think i will get through the selection test. It was mighty hard, the ligamentum arteriosum is a remnant of the ductus venosus? what the heck is that. But o well, this is my life, i remember myself making similar entries, for SRP, for Centad, For Bio olympiad, bio s paper and stuff. But perhaps, i am kindda feeling numb. It isn't easy to accept reality. I believe this is just part of what has been planned for my destiny, that i shall face reality in this two years of my life. There are people out there who probably never failed, winning every prize, aceing every test and awarded every scholarship, but i believe one day everyone will have to face failure, face reality. It is a terrible feeling, but i have more experience and i guess this time it would not affect me too much.
Read up glori's blog too, always so balanced, cannot stand her. But yar, i am in the same dilemma, what do i want to be in the future? i seriously have no idea. Medicine? Teaching? Pharmaceuticals? I guess at this point of time, i don't have much of a choice, i am limited by my results, my poor poor results. will i be able to reach my target of 3 As and one B with GP b3? i am not sure. I am working for it, but will i be able to make it. Sheer studying has brought me nowhere, what is wrong? I have pushed up my consistency, sleep less in lectures, pay more attention in class, try to make use of time more efficiently, what else do i need to do? Life is always so unfair, why am i not as intelligent? maybe that's why a concept like communism emphasising equality appeals to me so much. But then again, intelligence cannot be shared.
Oh well, things are getting better, but no concrete results have been showing. I must work hard for block test 1. to proof that i can do it, that my hard work will not be wasted. watch me shine =)
stalin rules
5:38 PM
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