Saturday, February 11, 2006
If u people have been tired of checking my blog and find that its un-updated again and again, i apologise, trying to find routine in my life. Trying to find a target that i can work towards to. Trying to get rid of everything bad that has happened. I am exhuasted, very exhuasted. I have never felt being so down and lonely before. Perhaps i had, but i never felt it manifest to such degree.
I guess its all my own fault, not taking certain steps early, letting all this complications to accumulate and finally break apart all in one single day. I am weakened, i am no loner who i were in the past. I feel no strength in me, i feel as though as i have fallen down and i cannot get myself back on feet. I rejected help, infuriating many. Life is really like a rollercoaster. One moment, u though u had everything you ever wanted, the next moment you feel that you never had anything.
I hope time can heal all the wounds, be it mine, or those around me, for i do not know what to do. Wait and see how things go, that's what i always tell myself and often i find that its too late. Bernard, where are you, please return to me, please restore my mind and my soul, for hard times loom ahead.
please......give me the strength to stand on my feet again...
stalin rules
10:12 PM
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