Sunday, April 25, 2004
another good time to blog, or is it not, given the fact that i have 5 test tmr? Hahax...firstly, the past week has been an unbearable one, simply because i fell ill, absent on tuesdae and had to apply leave on wednesdae cos i felt dead lethargic, and it was even more infuriating on wednesdae when every single lesson until i left the teachers asked me questions which i did not noe how to answer...what luck..aniwae..after that i sold off my ticket for beyond boundaries, sorri ning fei, and went home for an almost non- stop 13hours slp...can u imagine that?Then the next dae i started my dae off , in search of a long lost and unfelt momentum, i have totally lost my pace and rythm, disaster sets in as i struggled to cover up for what i missed out, all the tests, the lessons, and didn't noe what the hell was probability...even as i type, i am still left with maths and bio revision, and a lot of work to catch up, guess things will turn out better by wednesdae. i will nvr fall sick again, its just too costly for sec 4 life.
Went for RGS Cadenza 9 yesterdae, go there and support ginny!! hahax, but after everything, i had many thoguhts swirling in my mind, their band tradition, i mean how many bands can hold a concert bienially for 9 succesive ones, thats 18 years?And with each concert, comes a syf gold medal. The alumni and the band are so strong, their cheers, their creativness. It is all displayed, this is the band that will continue to grow and strengthen with every concert, every performance...My band...sad to sae, is far from it,maybe we haven't got the consistency yet, but it would take a long time...my job now maybe is to give the band more materially as it is what i can only do. learn my mottos well subsequent qms !!there are 2 i think.
Also, about going to RJC band, been thinking that its getting more and mroe impossible, cos firstly, my studies still not quite near there yet, but what's most important is the standard of my trumpet skills to get in, i am like so bad in it and i want to join a top band?Wouldn't i get thrashed by other trumpeteers, maybe even alike of panda?I will feel so tiny and helpless. So now left with two choices, either i go hwachong?or i polish up my trumpet skills...haiz, its like giving up my great dream, something that i have been thinking for years...esp after i join junior band to plae seagate overture?i totally sucked at it, how am i going to survive at jc....aghx...reality is just sometimes so cruel...
aniwae...gotta get running along, work still awaits me, victory is still at sight...i will work and i will mug!!!!
stalin rules
9:36 PM
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